I can sum up 2013 as the year I learned to love. Anyone who knows me, truly knows me, knows that I struggle to let people in. Yes I am a social person and yes I enjoy meeting new people, but very few people actually see beyond the surface into both the beautiful and the ugly. This is the year I learned to love, to forgive, and to let go. I experienced some of the worst moments in my life so far as well as some of the best moments. I recall spending the first few months of the year virtually depressed and miserable and wanting to call it quits, I couldn’t understand why things were going the way they were going especially when I was so sure that 2013 would be my year and it would be smooth sailing. Ha! Joke was on me! Everything that could have gone wrong did go wrong. Just when I thought I had hit rock bottom, someone took a drill and a shovel and I fell further in. But it is during this time that I got to experience some of the strongest bonds of friendship and I also learned the power of prayer. And it was also during this time I learned to let people in.
I didn’t realize that a lot of the negative that was going on in my life had to do with my surroundings. My turnaround came after I started letting go of some people and some things. I slowly started coming out of the dark hole I was in and could actually see and feel the light. Not to say that all my problems miraculously disappeared, but I had a better grip on what I needed to do and doors started just opening everywhere and I was finally doing things that mattered to me such as my project African Queens. 2013 was also the time I met a man who showed me that good guys still exist and he had opened my eyes and my heart to a world of possibilities.
Just as doors had opened this year, others have shut, however I am not afraid of what 2014 may bring. I have never been so thankful for life as I am now, and though this year ends with an unexpected twist, I can only take everything that I learned this past year and use that as my foundation for the new year. I look forward to continuing to strengthen my old friendships and to making new ones. I am excited for the new adventures that are in store for 2014 and I know a lot of people will be surprised when they see what I have got going on behind the scenes.
I also want to say a big thank you to all my faithful readers and subscribers of this blog in over 116 countries around the world. Wow! I am humbled and blown away. All I can say is you will definitely not be disappointed in 2014 as I plan to turn things up. I am going to really expose myself in the hopes that people learn from my mistakes and hopefully they will also see what I am doing right and apply it in a way that makes sense in their own life.
I leave you with this quote from one of my favourite authors: “Our histories cling to us. We are shaped by where we come from.” ― Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie
“You can be the most beautiful person in the world and everybody sees light and rainbows when they look at you, but if you yourself don’t know it, all of that doesn’t even matter. Every second that you spend on doubting your worth, every moment that you use to criticize yourself; is a second of your life wasted, is a moment of your life thrown away. It’s not like you have forever, so don’t waste any of your seconds, don’t throw even one of your moments away.”― C. JoyBell C.
My God-given theme for this year is Breakthrough, and when I say breakthrough I mean BREAKTHROUGH! Last year showed me that life is too short to spend even a fraction of second worrying about tomorrow and what may happen. Life is meant to be lived in the now, savoring each moment like you would savor a creamy strawberry cheesecake (or insert any of your favorite dessert). Each “mistake”, experience, moment, thought, expression and so forth should become pieces of treasure we can fill in our life treasure chest, so that when we open the chest full of these treasures, we will smile and thank God that each piece is a priceless memory of no regrets. This is not to say that you shouldn’t think about the future in the least, actually quite the contrary. If you embrace today, you are already setting yourself up for tomorrow and all its possibilities.
I honestly don’t think I have been this excited about a new year ever. I can’t tangibly explain it except I know that I know that I know that it is going to b a great year. One that will leave a huge mark for the rest of my life, for it will be a year that will change the direction of my life road. I also know that I know that its going to be an amazing year for those around me. Especially those close to me (you know who you are) but it all starts from the inside out. Hence my little title that rhymes: “Embracing me in 2013”. After reading all this, some will conclude that I am being naive and got my head in the clouds, but then those are the ones who do not know me. For I know we are living in a very real world and have always considered myself a realist. But I am a realist with perspective. I know I am not perfect, that I have flaws, that I will make mistakes, that I will experience pain, that I will cry and that I will hurt. However this year I consciously choose how I am going to adjust my attitude in the midst of adversity. Instead of focusing on the problem, focus on the solution. I think this sums it up best for me: “Legacy is not what’s left tomorrow when you’re gone. It’s what you give, create, impact and contribute today while you’re here that then happens to live on.” ― Rasheed Ogunlaru